1 Corinthians 13:4-8

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

4 Love suffereth long, and is kind; love envieth not; love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

5 doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not its own, is not provoked, taketh not account of evil;

6 rejoiceth not in unrighteousness, but rejoiceth with the truth;

7 beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

8 Love never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall be done away; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall be done away.

4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant,5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never fails; but if there are gifts of  prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away.

I have these walls I build up.

And now, even more so than before, I know that reason. You can’t help time. You can’t help how you feel. But you can proactively lie to yourself until the opposite becomes true. The thing is when that lie becomes your truth, are you happy? Or would you have wanted to stay with the feeling you had come to terms with?

Is it really better to numb it out, move forward and forget? 

Or is it better to stay still, keep it close and let time sort it out?

Did I

make a mistake? Should I take it back? I know how to make myself feel a certain way. Should I just force it in the opposite direction? I don’t know what I’m thinking anymore. 

In order to swim across the ocean, one must first have the courage to lose sight of the shore.

I remember

the day we first met. You were natural and beautiful. I’ll never forget. Later that night, I turned you around and told you to look at the stars to avoid embarrassment from the people watching us. Little did you know, I was also sharing one of the most intimate and important things in my life with you. I’m getting better at numbing memories but this one, like a lot of others, I still feel. 

I’m sorry.

I’m helpless to the past

“I want to clear my soul of you and I, it hurts to return”

Forever I shall be a stranger to myself. In psychology as in logic, there are truths but no truth.
— albert camus
You know you truly love someone when all you want for them is happiness. Even if that means without you.
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Your experiences

I feel like the more you help people and give advice from relevant experience, the more you’re forced to face those specific mistakes that you’ve made. Tonight was one of those nights.

Everything I felt was real. Honestly, I think for the first time ever. I’m sorry for what I’ve done. I took it all for granted. And I will not make that mistake ever again.

Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past.
— tryon edwards