February 2013
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“How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot
The world forgetting by the world...”
– Alexander Pope
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“We truly only seek to be content, not happy. Happiness is a luxury.”
July 2012
1 post
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“If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you...”
– robert fritz
January 2012
1 post
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1 Corinthians 13:4-8
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease;...
December 2011
2 posts
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I have these walls I build up.
And now, even more so than before, I know that reason. You can’t help time. You can’t help how you feel. But you can proactively lie to yourself until the opposite becomes true. The thing is when that lie becomes your truth, are you happy? Or would you have wanted to stay with the feeling you had come to terms with?
Is it really better to numb it out, move forward and forget?
Or is it better...
Did I
make a mistake? Should I take it back? I know how to make myself feel a certain way. Should I just force it in the opposite direction? I don’t know what I’m thinking anymore.
October 2011
3 posts
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“In order to swim across the ocean, one must first have the courage to lose sight...”
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I remember
the day we first met. You were natural and beautiful. I’ll never forget. Later that night, I turned you around and told you to look at the stars to avoid embarrassment from the people watching us. Little did you know, I was also sharing one of the most intimate and important things in my life with you. I’m getting better at numbing memories but this one, like a lot of others, I still...
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I'm helpless to the past
“I want to clear my soul of you and I, it hurts to return”
September 2011
3 posts
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“Forever I shall be a stranger to myself. In psychology as in logic, there are...”
– albert camus
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“You know you truly love someone when all you want for them is happiness. Even if...”
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Your experiences
I feel like the more you help people and give advice from relevant experience, the more you’re forced to face those specific mistakes that you’ve made. Tonight was one of those nights.
Everything I felt was real. Honestly, I think for the first time ever. I’m sorry for what I’ve done. I took it all for granted. And I will not make that mistake ever again.
August 2011
2 posts
“Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past.”
– tryon edwards
“If you live to be 100, i hope i live to be 100 minus a day, so i never have to...”
– winnie the pooh
July 2011
21 posts
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my heart won’t let you go. i don’t know, even after all this time, it just won’t. i hope you’re happy. i know that time has the tendency to make it all go away but i’m not sure if it will ever leave or if i even want it to. from time to time, i feel that heaviness in my soul. you seemed to understand that fully. i’m afraid i’ll never find that again.
i am significantly sad and want it back.
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“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality...”
– dr. seuss
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“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter,...”
– dr. seuss
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I just want to feel. I’d rather feel pain then numb. At least with pain, you know that you exist in reality.
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“Did perpetual happiness in the Garden of Eden maybe get so boring that eating...”
– Chuck Palahniuk
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A relationship is a relationship. Yes, the title of being someone’s significant other could mean a lot. But as much as you want to ignore it, there is a clear and obvious connection that isn’t shared with anyone else in that moment and time. If this connection were non-existent there would be no concern or conflict over the title in the first place.
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Gabriel: Why is it that you’re never just single and okay?
Jenn: I don’t know Gabe. I guess I just need someone there. You know? Someone I can depend on and make me feel important.
Gabriel: So you always need to be with someone?
Jenn: Yeah I guess.
Gabriel: This actually makes me really sad.
Jenn: Why?
Gabriel: Because you only exist in this life when someone is there to...
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Your end doesn’t always justify the means of getting there. The end is the end and that’s it, how you get there is what is important. Some people push through the hardest things in life while caring about others and being selfless to get to a place of happiness or content. And some people are malicious, selfish, and could care less about morals as long as they as well reach that...
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“You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect...”
– sam keen
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You know what’s weird. Every single time I look at the stars I always have the same exact feeling and thought. I see all the stars and become so enamored. The vastness of the sky with so many specks of light scattered across it. I think of the the solar system and all the planets past those stars, then about the multiple solar systems just in our galaxy alone. And on top of that, there are other...
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“I’m done pretending. I know what I’ve loved and I know what I want to love. Once...”
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People will treat others with such a large amount of disrespect for extended periods of time and still expect the perfect ending in their life.
They will try and dignify their opinion of themselves by constantly spewing from their acid tongues their view of other people and their feelings. It’s already enough that people have little care for one another in this world. But it’s ridiculous to...
as of recently people have been throwing out the word “love” like hot cakes. like every other comment or post i see is “i love you!” or “love ya!”. is there a real upsurge in the amount of love in this world? or are people using the word just as validation of friendship/social relationship? it really shouldn’t be used for the latter.
honestly, it’s really hard for me to say it unless:
1. it...
remember the days
when telling someone you liked them was a huge deal because your biggest concern was whether they liked you back or would even consider liking you back. nowadays, everything has to be assumed through action. i was thinking about my days in middle school and how many times i was shot down haha. everything seemed so complex back then but little did i know what was ahead. hey simplicity…us old...
having to put oneself out there is really hard to do. especially, if you don’t feel like it really matters. but i guess there’s just a point where you have to try. if you don’t then you’ll never know what it would or could have been. this sounds very cliche’ but it’s the truth. in love, in your aspirations, in life. trying is what people want to avoid. i never felt good enough and i never...
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I hate when you watch things that make you instantly feel the way you did at that time, especially if that feeling was the happiest you can remember being. And you know that the only reason you felt that happy was because the person or persons you were with. You start to think about everything, like every single moment where you depended on one another.
“Do you remember when you needed me most...
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often you just want people to talk to. nothing else. that way you don’t get so used to being alone that it’s all you know. there isn’t always an ulterior motive or something to gain. it’s just nice to know out of all the people in your state, nation, let alone the world, someone is listening and not just hearing you. men are labeled as constantly having an ulterior motive because let’s face it,...
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cursed
one thing that i have learned and am sure of now is that if you can’t be okay being completely alone living the life you’ve chosen then you will never be good enough for someone else.
“cursed to always search but never to find”
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“When we walk to the edge of all the light we have and take that step into the...”
– patrick overton
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Some things
never leave the heart. You hollowed out a part of it and no matter what you try and fill it with, nothing will suffice. You can try and forget. You can even try and hate what once was there but in the end, that hollow cavity will always stay there. It’s a scar that will always be there. I’m not saying you can’t be happy and that this scar is necessarily a bad thing. It’s just sometimes, on...
