With best regards,

"How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot The world forgetting by the world forgot Eternal..."

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 07:01:48 -0500

“How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot
The world forgetting by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Each pray’r accepted, and each wish resign’d”

- Alexander Pope

"We truly only seek to be content, not happy. Happiness is a luxury."

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 04:23:39 -0500

“We truly only seek to be content, not happy. Happiness is a luxury.”

"If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from..."

Sun, 01 Jul 2012 03:47:42 -0400

“If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is compromise.”

- robert fritz

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Tue, 03 Jan 2012 22:08:00 -0500

⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

⁸ Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

⁴ Love suffereth long, and is kind; love envieth not; love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

⁵ doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not its own, is not provoked, taketh not account of evil;

⁶ rejoiceth not in unrighteousness, but rejoiceth with the truth;

⁷ beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

⁸ Love never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall be done away; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall be done away.

⁴ Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant,⁵ does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, ⁶ does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; ⁷ bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

⁸ Love never fails; but if there are gifts of prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away.

I have these walls I build up.

Mon, 19 Dec 2011 15:52:00 -0500

And now, even more so than before, I know that reason. You can’t help time. You can’t help how you feel. But you can proactively lie to yourself until the opposite becomes true. The thing is when that lie becomes your truth, are you happy? Or would you have wanted to stay with the feeling you had come to terms with?

Is it really better to numb it out, move forward and forget?

Or is it better to stay still, keep it close and let time sort it out?

Did I

Tue, 13 Dec 2011 05:29:02 -0500

make a mistake? Should I take it back? I know how to make myself feel a certain way. Should I just force it in the opposite direction? I don’t know what I’m thinking anymore.

"In order to swim across the ocean, one must first have the courage to lose sight of the shore."

Tue, 25 Oct 2011 03:43:38 -0400

“In order to swim across the ocean, one must first have the courage to lose sight of the shore.”

I remember

Mon, 17 Oct 2011 17:56:36 -0400

the day we first met. You were natural and beautiful. I’ll never forget. Later that night, I turned you around and told you to look at the stars to avoid embarrassment from the people watching us. Little did you know, I was also sharing one of the most intimate and important things in my life with you. I’m getting better at numbing memories but this one, like a lot of others, I still feel.

I’m sorry.

I'm helpless to the past

Mon, 17 Oct 2011 17:43:00 -0400

“I want to clear my soul of you and I, it hurts to return”

"Forever I shall be a stranger to myself. In psychology as in logic, there are truths but no truth."

Sat, 03 Sep 2011 15:31:00 -0400

“Forever I shall be a stranger to myself. In psychology as in logic, there are truths but no truth.”

- albert camus

"You know you truly love someone when all you want for them is happiness. Even if that means without..."

Thu, 01 Sep 2011 19:03:25 -0400

“You know you truly love someone when all you want for them is happiness. Even if that means without you.”

Your experiences

Thu, 01 Sep 2011 03:59:56 -0400

I feel like the more you help people and give advice from relevant experience, the more you’re forced to face those specific mistakes that you’ve made. Tonight was one of those nights.

Everything I felt was real. Honestly, I think for the first time ever. I’m sorry for what I’ve done. I took it all for granted. And I will not make that mistake ever again.

"Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past."

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 03:32:00 -0400

“Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past.”

- tryon edwards

"If you live to be 100, i hope i live to be 100 minus a day, so i never have to live without you."

Mon, 01 Aug 2011 03:15:00 -0400

“If you live to be 100, i hope i live to be 100 minus a day, so i never have to live without you.”

- winnie the pooh

my heart won’t let you go. i don’t know, even after all this time, it just won’t....

Mon, 18 Jul 2011 04:52:17 -0400

my heart won’t let you go. i don’t know, even after all this time, it just won’t. i hope you’re happy. i know that time has the tendency to make it all go away but i’m not sure if it will ever leave or if i even want it to. from time to time, i feel that heaviness in my soul. you seemed to understand that fully. i’m afraid i’ll never find that again.

i am significantly sad and want it back.

Mon, 18 Jul 2011 04:46:32 -0400

i am significantly sad and want it back.

"You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better..."

Mon, 11 Jul 2011 19:02:00 -0400

“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

- dr. seuss

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who..."

Mon, 11 Jul 2011 19:01:00 -0400

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”

- dr. seuss

I just want to feel. I’d rather feel pain then numb. At least with pain, you know that you...

Tue, 05 Jul 2011 16:47:00 -0400

I just want to feel. I’d rather feel pain then numb. At least with pain, you know that you exist in reality.

"Did perpetual happiness in the Garden of Eden maybe get so boring that eating the apple was..."

Sun, 03 Jul 2011 19:52:00 -0400

“Did perpetual happiness in the Garden of Eden maybe get so boring that eating the apple was justified?”

- Chuck Palahniuk